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Baby Gemma, Worth The Wait!

I had the privilege to photograph this little lady and boy was I excited. My dear friend was so strong though her journey with infertility and the Lord blessed her with this precious little girl. Amanda graciously shared her journey to encourage women who are in a similar season in life…

“Please give me grace to be happy for them… Help me not fall apart when they show me their new baby… let me be loving as they don’t understand my pain… God? I need you… ”  These were my daily prayers as I grieved the losses of pregnancy and failed fertility treatments. I had a constant tug of war on my heart. How could I be focusing so much on what I didn’t have, when I had so much to be thankful for!? I truly was happy- I had an amazing husband that stood by me, whose love never waivered. We had a loving family, amazing friends, and above all a loving God that blessed us in so many ways. I had seen God’s hand protect, heal, and provide in ways only He could. He was answering our prayers for family, for friends, for business concerns, but when it came to prayers for a baby, it was always another negative test or pregnancy that ended so soon. I knew that He knew our hearts. Our desires. Josh and I knew He could give us a baby.. So why were we childless? So many blessings… yet years of unanswered prayers. Tug. Of. War. We went two and a half years before we consulted a doctor. Six years, multiple failed fertility treatments later we were exhausted. I was tired of being disappointed and was physically not feeling up to trying anything more. The Dr said In Vitro was the next step. Knowing what was involved for me in that process, I was absolutely in no hurry. Frankly, I was down on the idea. It was costly, and what felt like another shot in the dark. I needed some serious convincing to get me excited about it. Despite my feelings and insecurities,  God was at work. He was at work all along. A couple of friends talked to Josh and felt very strongly that we’d consider In Vitro, not knowing we had been praying for that confirmation. A spark lit in my husband. A light that was contagious. After all the heartache, waiting and praying we were more hopeful than ever. That was it. God spoke. We decided to go for it and we didn’t look back. In August of 2013, 8 years after our first miscarriage, came the much anticipated phone call from the fertility clinic. We. Were. Pregnant! Our sweet Gemma came gracefully into our lives on April 15th 2014. Our precious baby girl is 100% proof that the Lord hears our prayers and answers them according to His perfect timing. Timing that was very difficult to understand when we were waiting, but looking back it was perfect. We drew closer together as a couple, and as a couple drew closer to the Lord- relying on Him to get through each day. Today we celebrate our 9 year anniversary. This year we get to love and celebrate each other and our beautiful daughter. Our hearts are full of Joy and we are overwhelmed by Gods mercy and provision.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 says “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”As I write this, Gemma is fast asleep, warm and cozy in my arms. God must be smiling. I’m crying:) Sarah, thank you for asking me to share our story. I pray it finds a heart in need of encouragement and hope, maybe someone else who’s waiting. 

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  • May 28, 2014 - 10:37 am

    Atoms - Amanda, thank you for sharing your story. I know it's hard to understand God's timing and why certain things happen, but as you know, God always provides! Thank you for being a true testament of what being a woman of faith is all about! Praise God for your sweet Gemma!ReplyCancel

  • May 28, 2014 - 12:46 pm

    Callie Enger - Amazing story Amanda!! And what a beautiful family. God is good 😉 So so happy for you three!!

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